Starbucks is the cocaine of the 21st Century. Discuss.

many ask how i celebrated father's day
many do not know i do not have a father..
well ok that's a little bit of a drag
but truth be told, i've not seen him for the past 4 yrs...

havin said that, it wasn't like he was there when my parents were still together..

so many ceremonies..
so many sports days..
so many plays..

you missed them all..

so while i was sippin my green tea frappucino in starbucks..
there were many young fathers who tried so hard to mollycuddle their children..
was i a horrible kid? did my dad mollycuddle me in any way?

i do not want to bitch and whine about havin a terrible childhood
im sure all of us would have wanted out childhood to have been differently..
and that now, many of us swear that when it's our turn to be mums and dads..
we'd be better than them..i hope you guys are able to keep that promise

me? i can't make that promise.. which is why i don't see myself gettin married to begin with..
** a point where i've reiterated in a previous post..

back to dad..
its funny how things changed when he remarried
its funny, that i still tell people im a single child..
well.. to begin wif i've not yet met my step brothers/sisters..

and at times i joke with my mum that this is why i nv went out with a malay girl..
maybe i'd end up bein wif my step sister's cousin in law's brother's daughter..

how ironic, that i have another family out there..
and yet, i've not seen them, met them..or even know their names..

times like this i find it hard to comprehend as to why a man can be so irresponsible towards his own family...
and yet adopt a new family and shower his grandkids with much affection..affection that was nv shown towards his own son...

i am sorry that i hate you, but you taught me how to.
happy belated father's day, to the father i never knew.

ouch

i wanna thank god for watching over me

i wanna thank the 2 strangers who helped me to the road shoulder

i wanna thank my mum who came all the way for me, who was faster from bukit batok than the bishan ambulance crew..

i love my mum..

it was all minor.. im good.. :D i'll be back at work next week..

post your secrets

while i waited for work to start at 8pm yesterday

i was walkin around Vivo and checked up the most underrated bookstore, PageOne...

you should really check the place out, an extensive range of advert, media, pop culture bks on display, and the best part yet it has not yet been infested by kids like in Borders, or so jam packed with people like in Kino..

so there i was, browsing around.. and i came across a book..and as i flipped the pages, a bold sentence caught my eye..

"each night i still look at your photo.. and i wonder what could have been if you did not move 500miles away..

www.postsecret.blogspot.com

The book is actually a collection of secrets being sent to Mr Frank Warren.

He initiated the 1800-SUICIDE hotline across America, and often encouraged people to make a personalised postcard with their secret written on it..

did he get kicks from reading people's deepest darkest or at times amusing secrets?

well.. probably..

but i guess what was most uplifting is how free the person would have felt, to have seen his/her postcard published online, or even in the book...

"i wished someone knew my secrets so that i don't need to pretend im alright"

that was the postcard published on the last page of the book..

i guess, upon readin secrets of others, you do feel a sense of connection, that someone somewhere out there..

is hurt the same way as you
is scared the same way as you
is confused the same was as you..

let me tell you a secret..

why i dun believe in marriage?

perhaps im scared of being the father, the husband that my dad was to me and my mum..

tell a secret, let it out..

make yourself feel better, make someone out there feel better too..

rachel

once upon a time there was a 14 yr old boy..
one fine day he met a 14 yr old girl..
they fell in love..
one fine day, they fell out of love, and hated one another..

the girl probably din't know how much she changed his life..
how his life would never be the same again..

was he remorseful? probably..
was he hurt? definitely

5 years down the road they met again..

was he happy? but of course yes..
was he wary? a little..
was he still feeling bitter? he would have lied if he said no..

2 yrs on..

the girl's in australia..
the boy's in singapore..

maybe the boy is afraid to be friends because he doesn't want to open his heart to her again..
but i guess what the boy really wants..is to apologise to the girl..

for everything.. for anything.. he had ever done to her..

to the girl who i met when there wasn't a place for her in my heart..

the day i flew off the bike

hello i just flew off my motorbike.

it was 2.30am, around Kranji Dam.

skidded la bro

abrasion on the right knee, sprained the right ankle too.

the bike was ok.

anyway, let's see where the bike brought me to this week

yes, this is nice. omar gives one thumb up~~

what? pork? nooooooo

im sure this has no pork..

what? lard..? fuck..

heh..lard?pork.. like i ever gave a damn..

the one where it went untitled

when you're dreaming with a broken heart

waking up is the hardest part...

im lovin' it

gosh.. it's been a while since my last post..

well.. i have finally shrugged off the post trip blues.. and onwards with post trip community project.. heh

in retrospect.. it has been an interesting 2weeks.. finally decided upon RedBull's proposal **i refuse to be refered to as a member of Rojak**

it looked solid..really well polished.. good presentation skills.. but at the end of it all.. the team with the feasible idea won.. shrugs.. anyway.. thumbs up to Team Redbull.. we rocked their socks

The RedBull Lineup, Jan-Feb 2007

Yixin.. me, kaiyan, peizhi.. pearl.. Go Team RedBull~~~ **and one chang beer

on the bright side we'd be workin with youths.. though i felt.. if budget/framework wasn't an issue.. our proposal would havebeen given the heads up.. along with th efact that almost every other delegation member chose our project.. you could really have seen the expression on lionels/des/yj's face.. heh.. but hey.. youth gambling.. im lovin it..

though im terribly pleased with the current programs group lineup

The lovely Robyn.. who finally gets to boss me around since she's the committee head

this was taken..in youth outreach, HK


and this.. my sayang.. pearl.. at youth outreach HK Bldg's roof.. we tried to look like robyn..
my sayang.. you rock.. we rock.. glad we're still workin together in Programs.. :D:D:D

oh.. she's the deputy of the committee.. the same Pub Pairing for spore leg.. heh

yes.. my mat bro.. zee.. FINALLY.. we're workin together in the same committee.. YEAHH..

so gonna look forward to this synergy between us..

taken along avenue of stars.. with the awesome tsim tsa shui at the backdrop..

and also.. mr yixin.. from Team RedBull.. **what a mat.. what a playa...**

watch your front..hormat ke depan.. hor..... MAT.. haha

and guest starring.. Miss Chan Huimin.. the Treasurer.. and who is also an honorary member of the Programs Committee.. taken at Sugar.. LanKwaiFong, HK

and outside HK Uni.Fac. of Fashion dressed to impress

reminding me again of the semi-charmed life im leading.. im lovin it....

++playlist; I'll fly with you; Gigi D'Augustino++

+ you, me and kowloon +

7 days in HongKong..

From the dizzying lights of Kowloon, to the watering holes of LanKwaiFong

From the beauty of Victoria Peak to the majestic BigBuddha

From Bruce Lee, to the pandas in Ocean Park.

I miss them all, but most of all i miss you

sufferin from post-trip blues, and probably i cant blog properly

so a proper outline of what went down in HK would be up later on

i just wanna say however, i MISS YOU LOADS ~~~~~~

** pluck part two **

3 MORE DAYS

me in hong kong... YAYYYY

so many trials, and tribulations

catfights, tears, blood, sweat.. sleepless nights

WE'RE GOING HK...mwahahahahahhaha

anywho, i went pluck yesterday with the purple and the pinkie/muffins/robbobyn

with robbobyn's self timed camera

outside pluck

on a separate note altogether

i dun get it when people, walk out of your life, and out of a sudden just wanna come back in

wats up with that?

you dun just drop a msn msg and expect things to get better

pretty much ambivalent towards you since then

i hope you find clarity in life

but most importantly, i wish that you would seek happiness in your life

we had something good goin on

but it was thrown away

nothing happened between us

i've moved on.. what about you?

the mat and the muffins

anyway i failed my assessment again.. shrugs..

30 points.. gosh worse then my first time

well then had to rush 6pm to bugis mrt.. had a 'nice' walk in the rain with her 'SUPER BIG' pink umbrella.. shrugs.. INVEST IN BIGGER UMBRELLAS.. or ask your mum to make a new one for you haha

had nice ice cream at Pluck, apparently a new boutique/cafe at Haji Lane..

but apparently they did not have a LOT OF THINGS on that day.. except the Butterscotch Sundae.. **well you could have just saved my time and tell me that you only have that so that i did not have to rattle the whole menu to you and to always be replied with 'no, we're out of it'

and then we went to BBBC for some nice fish and chips, Hoegardeen and a whole night of talking, yakking and getting to know one another better

i had fun, i hope you did too

++ Playlist: Stay; Ne-yo feat. Pee-di ++

Tears gone by, the year gone past

Things i've done/achieved/tried/attempted

in no particular order, in Y2006

1. Got my Pink IC / ORD / Finished my Period of Service to the Nation


2. Actually thought of being in a relationship with yj


3. Cleared things with J from KL


4. Went to Bangkok


5. My last teenage year gone by


6. Motorbike vroom vroom


7. Joined an Exchange Program to Hong Kong


8. Slept through the World Cup Finals


9. Cried when Arsenal lost the Champions League finals


10. Cut down on clubbing


11. Shaved my head bald


12. Met up with 03a21


13. Threw 6 Parties for HOME


14. Got to work at an Animation Company


15. Started Gym


16. Shifted houses.. Thrice..

TO those who have been a part of my life.. i thank you all

to the SHIYEP people.. i wish that our friendship would remain even after the program

to the ghosts of the past who came back in my life, thank you for reminding me of what a horrible person i was and i wish to never go back to those days.. thank you for making me the person i am today

Someday we'll know, if love could move a mountain

Someday wei'll know, why the sky is blue

Someday we'll know, why i wasn't meant for you

7 days the remix

its been 7 days of madness.. i miss everyone..

friendships were built.. and i look forward to seeing everyone in january..


E - i will never forget you..

S - dry your tears cos we'll be in HK in no time la .. :p if not i'll ask him to dry your tears for you





J - sure..like you always say.. sure *mwahahahaha*




J my man - one day i'll have your biceps...




R - lets MC again soon.. hahaha


i miss you all now.. but i'll miss you guys even more after january..



+ playlist: i miss you; blink 182 +

Dashboard Confessionals

gosh.. and its Day 4.. and it felt like... 4ever... its been fast and furious... its been fun.. i love the HK peeps.. Jack's cool guy.. strong, silent type... GAAAAAAAAAAAA

but i love the LOCAL DELEGATES.. hahaha.. it feels.. tiring..but with something to do.. its awesome..

Team AC/Temasek at the luge

silly muffins girl with me at the sky ride up to luge

we went Shesha on our first night.. where everyone chased the elusive dragon.. but ONE person ended up being chased by the dragon till at sentosa... *ahem* me, not the vice captain, but the captain of vices.. bleahhhh

oh.. i got paired up with her as facilitators on saturday for sentosa games * she's uber saccharine sweet.. and she made cookies for us.. haha.. cookies and muffins.. what more can you ask

but actually her mum made it.. hmm... hmm.. hahaha

well spent the xmas wee morning chatting with them on the bed.. it was insightful.. B was clearly upset with the outcome of the 4 Qs game.. hmm.. haiz haiz..

and fell asleep at 5am with them .. woke up at 6.45am, rushed to funana macs.. HAH.. today was a lot of walking.. and picture taking.. YAYY

more fotos to be uplaoded soon.. speaking of photos.. i HATE people who put *OMG im so fat / OMG im so ugly* as captions to their photos.. urgghh

+playlist: Senyuman Ragamu, Gerhana Ska CInta +

+ wow +

after a 2 year hiatus and im back blogging..
and finally.. the elusive pink IC on wednesday..
oh oh.. bike lessons at 1.50pm later...

+ playlist: someday we'll know; New Radicals +